SEPT. 26th-28th - EQUINOX FULL MOON:
Solo scouting
mission to Mt Shasta, Gaia's Muladhara.
3 day fast and
vision quest. Incredible journey. Harsh mountain peak,
climbing to summit in simultaneous searing sun and icy
winds. Refilling waterbottle from glacier-scrapings.
Extended Ganesha (as Lord of the Base Chakra)
mantras during and between climbing.
Extreme physical exertion, sunburn (red is the colour
of Muladhara!) and sunstroke. Almost caused an
avalanche. Extreme gnosis.
When you get high enough up the mountain you can see
how the physical landscape reifies (very Malkuth!) the
concept of Mt Shasta being the Muladhara of the
planet: The surrounding mountain ranges, rather than
going in rows or even wiggles, actually fully curl
right around Mt Shasta -the earth-serpent kundalini
coiled around the base chakra!
Pranayama at the windswept summit. Thin air. Shiva
mantra.
On my third day at Mt Shasta (pretty out there by
then from fasting and exertion) I worked extensively
with the Ganesha yantra (thanks Tzimon!)drawn in the
sand. Then extended this out into a tenstar (2
interlocked pentagrams) mandala, laying the
foundations for the Malkuth working on the following
full moon. Consecrated small travelling Nritya
Ganapati idol and new DraQyl short-staff as an
Ekudanta Ganapati TuskQyl which complements my KiaQyl
feather-tipped long-staff carved from the same
5000-yr-old black hardwood. Ganesha and Thoth (consort
of Maat, whose Feather of Truth is His Quill) are the
scribes of their respective pantheons.
Got back to Mt Shasta town, ate til I had a
Ganesha-belly and felt now thoroughly grounded in the
northern hemisphere.
Nov.30th -
Tortoises everywhere -live ones at
Tzimon's in SF, Green Tortoise bus to Mt Shasta, and I
saw a tortoise in the equinoctal full moon at Mt
Shasta. An apt totem for me at the moment with my
large backpack travelling around -and perhaps a sign
not to rush my journey. The very late green tortoise
bus *from* Mt Shasta caused me to stay there another
night, and see/feel some other land on the way up. I
need to breathe and reflect along the way. The red
Indian horned God Kokopelli springs to mind -this is
His land after All! He is the burden-bearer who dances
no matter how heavy his load: the Fool Atu, Nritya
(Happy Dancer) Ganapati. In Hindu creation myths
elephants support the world -Ganesh as lord of base
chakra? These world-elephants stand on a tortoise's
back -full circle!
I have to remember not to get angry when things don't
seem to be going right -like not getting a lift to
Eugene tonight -for now I find instead I am camped
under a beautiful big old mama Willow tree, its
ground-sweeping 'weeping' branches forming a perfect
enclosure aound me. THe night is warm and I even found
an old bit of foam to put under my sleeping bag:
everything is provided. Om Ganapati Namah!
I actually needed the space tonight to write,
meditate and reflect on recent events rather than
rushing into new contacts. So there is a reason for
everyhting -I just need to fleiow with the chaos more,
knowing that there is a natural and perfect order
(Mayet) therein...
OCT.1st -
A black cat (with a white belly) crossed my
path this morning in a most unusual way -on a branch
above of the willow tree I was sleeping under as I
awoke -what a wonderful way to start the day!
OCT. 4th - After a few at first very disorientated
days in Vancouver and Portland I begin to settle in,
solidify email friendships and make new ones. Some
interesting freaks about...
Went to Mt St Helens (volcano which last erupted
just 19 years ago) and earthed in this region. Awesome
sight and feeling -the power and intense destructive
potential of Gaia's fire. Ravens wheeling and cawing
in the desolate crater.
Stuck my DraQyl shortstaff in the ground and felt a
very tangible surge of heat through my bloodstream.
Consecration by fire of the Dragon Qyl.
Read Phil's post to the Works list that night, which
led me to the 'Book of the Black Serpent' on his site.
The Netzach Qliphoth Ghoreb Zereg jumped out at me
-'Dispersing Ravens issuing from a volcano'. Both I
and Ash who was also at Mt St Helens had recently been
working with Daath. Energies seem scattered and people
leave suddenly for Canada next morning.
Oct. 6th -
1st circle for Mt Shasta working last
night. Concepts established, Lots of interest, great
chanting.
OCT. 8th -
Second circle last night for the Mt
Shasta Tenstar Weaving went off!
Informal discussion and
getting-to-know-each-other-personally-and-magickally
stuff with taoist tea ceremony.
Then Zygoat's individual wonderful sonic smudging of
everyone with singing bowl brought us into focus and
out of verbal into ritual space.
We did chakra breathing meditations then chanting of
chakra tones as a group, and the sound and shakti were
at least twice as intense as at the first circle.
After that we were all tripping right out and took the
energy (unplanned) right into an extended Ganesha puja
come freeform
vocals-violin-percussion-invocations-dancing kind of
thing. Wonderful.
Did HML initiation ritual for Zygoat afterwards.
Powerful, tarot and bibliomancy spot on for current
progressions.
Weird dreams, half woke up and sat up chanting while
still half-astral. Today realized it is part of the
integration of the six bodies in the Sekhem current I
am beginning to attune to.
Thought about doing a banishing of the Ravens of
Dispersion but the silly paradox of 'banishing
dispersal' later hit me and I decided to focus on
gathering/uniting energies instead.
A strange axis flip is occurring from the
Pentagrammaton weaving last year.
Several of the TOPY Pandrogyne mages who sent energy
from USA to Aust for that rite are now exactly one
year later (Samhain full moon) going to be in the
physical weaving at Mt Shasta. So I am compelled to
contact the initiates involved in the physical weaving
last year (Pent'n) to complete the pattern by sending
energy from Aust. next full moon (Oct. 24th) to us at
Mt Shasta.
Another great link: Our Kether initiate, Enrique -a
Mexican who was in the Pentagrammaton-sending circle
last year- is really into 13 and has a 13-star
tattooed on his chest -seeds of 13-star weaving
(global Manipura working -see
http://www.crossroads.wild.net.au/lib13.htm) laid in
foundation of 10*! He is even thinking of being the
Amerindian representative in the 13* weaving in Aust
next year.
Tis an astral/physical world wide web unravelling...
9th Oct Nu Moon
Horus-Maat Lodge/Flock/TOPY Pandrogyne/Order ov
ChAos/Sekhet-Maat Oasis OTO/IOT local convergence
linked in with global Horus-Maat Lodge 11* working
(see .
Om Kali Durgay Namoh Namah! Sa Sekhem SaHu! Io
Babalon!
What a fucking intense circle!
At the two previous circles towards the Mt Shasta
working few Flock members were able to attend due to
work, etc. Last night I got to see and feel the Flock
as a group in action, combined with the energies of
the other (multi-initiated) mages I have been working
with in this area (Portland and Vancouver).
Fireworks!!
I placed a Dhurga (it being the day of the year
hindis worldwide invoke her energy) poster, the
Strength/Lust card
from my Book ov ChAos and the counterbalancing
Temphioth reflex card from Linda's Nightside Tarot on
the altar.
As people were gathering I met Two Feathers/Later.
He looked and felt just like I glimpsed from Aust.
several nu moons back.
Sienna found a spider weaving in the temple as the
circle formed. After some warmup drumming I overviewed
the Shasta
working for those less familiar with it, and
discussion merged with developing a very basic
framework for the evening.
It was interesting how the symbols and talismans
converged in the centre of the Temple floor. I had
planned on sanctifying some fiery liquor in the names
of Durga and Sekhmet, and the traditional yantra for
this process is a simple triangle within a circle
inwhich the chalice is charged. So when Sienna began
drawing the HML sigil in centre-floor it seemed
obvious to use this. She handed me the owlfeather
inkquill to draw the feather in the triangle, but I
placed the quill itself there instead, after drawing
the N'aton (a name in Maat Magick for the awakening
collective consciousness) bindrune next to it.
All fifteen of us joined hands and began deep
breathing. I saw/felt a band of rainbow colours
encircling our circle beneath the floorboards, the
energy of the earthserpent. We began the chakra
toning. This has been our main unifying gnosis in the
Shasta circles. The chakra tones are an excellent way
for non-local participants to tune in to the (Oct
24th) working at Mt Shasta. THe chakra tones, and can
be found at
http://www.crossroads.wild.net.au/chak.htm
United and high from powerful resonance of the
extended group toning, we then lapsed into silent
meditation visualizing the HML sigil and N'aton
bindrune. I saw that the rainbow band of energy had
raised up out of the earth and now sat in a spectrum
band thru our bodies. I saw strands of light
connecting all our chakra points. Some were
clearer/stronger than others, some barely perceptible,
so the overall web looked a bit askew. Then it somehow
resolved itself in my mindseye into the Shri Yantra
-symbol of the 15 emanations of Shakti/Goddess. How
apt, for the Durga day is only the first of a ten
(Malkuth!)-day Hindu celebration of the many forms of
Goddess. And there were 15 of us.
The central triangle of the Shri Yantra intersects
with a bindu point rather than an inverse triangle
like the others. This central triangle was, of course,
the HML sigil drawn in the centre of the temple floor,
intersecting the bindu/yod (nice connection Aion!) of
the N'aton bindrune!
I became aware of my Merkabah field, then to varying
degrees of clarity those of others in the circle.
THese spun and tumbled into the yantra, which rippled
with energy, forming into various 3dimensional
geometric light web morphing patterns between us all.
After some time I sensed restlessness in some of the
circle and slowly began the Durga chant -Om
Kali-Dhurgay Namoh Namah! As this gradually picked up
numbers, energy and speed we stood and broke hands.
Drums began to roll, tambourines shuddered and the
chant shifted and harmonized between the Durga mantra
and Sa Sekhem Sa Hu! -Sekhem is the firey energy of
this current, deified as Sekmet or Sekhet, in much the
same way as Shakti is the energy essence manifesting
thru the forms of the ten Mahavidya -in fact Shakti
and Sekhmet as Energy have the same linguistic roots.
Thus I sanctified the liquor (an appropriately fiery
pepper vodka) with both Hindu and Egyptian mantras in
the Hindu Yantra for Shakti fire-liquor, drawing a
circle with the Maat quill around the Horus red
triangle. In this with Trihandha mudra I charged the
chalice of fire, a large buffalo drinking-horn (Red
Indian, Norse and Pan-ic aspects implicit). I dipped
the quill in this horn, astounded at how previous nu
moon visions I had had in Australia were suddenly
reified talismanically in this circle -the quill of
Maat in the chalice of Babalon, containing the fiery
liquor of Sekhem/Shakti! SekhMaat!
As the drums and chanting (freeform elements
interweaving with the mantras) gathered tempo and
momentum, I could feel the energy pulsing in the
central mandala thru the turning chalice; I completed
the ceremony and lifted the horn high. One swig and I
felt totally charged with intense Shakti. I began an
Ophidian dance, spine tingling. THis picked up into a
circumnambulation of the central yantra, joined by
Enrique (Kether in the 10*). We ran around and around,
faster and faster with the drums pounding and the
voices wailing in a blur around us. I don't think I've
ever ran around in small circles that ridiculously
fast (Sa Sekhmet!) without losing my Balance (Io
Maat!)!! An intense vortex formed.
This crescendoed until we spun out (literally) from
the sheer centrifugal force generated. I prostrated
before the yantra, grounding the energy down into the
earth, joined in this by various others. Over the next
hour or two or three (?) the music, dancing and energy
shifted and morphed through many different
atmospheres, lulling into deep bassy earth sounds then
spinning back into firey durges and spins, with
violins and didge counterpointing the percussion and
voices at times. The firesnake was rampant!
Garret's intense barking on Didgeridoo towards the
end tweaked some deep memory in my brain and I began
chanting what sounded like Aboriginal songs. A final
tempestuous crescendo of sound broke those who
remained in the circle.
I remained in the Laughing Bird store temple
performing three HML/Order ov ChAos combined
initiations for Portland people in the charged space.
These were of course thus very potent!
Tonight the thrones have been consolidated. We have
11 initiates for the Mt Shasta weaving, plus one
reserve. They can now begin invoking and working with
their chosen sephiroth on a daily basis in the two
weeks remaining until the weaving. 'Nother circle
tomorrow!
Om Kali-Durgay Namoh Namah!
Sa Sekhem SaHu!
Io Babalon!
21st OCT
After a brief foray in Seattle I returned to the
Portland/Vancouver Nexus in time for another circle
for the tenstar. There was also a circle while I was
in Seattle, as it had reached a stage where I no
longer needed to be there. Aion, Shade and I tuned in
to that circle from Seattle with chakra chanting and a
chakra puja, I caught a brief flash of the circle.
Several days later I had it confirmed that for the
first time all ten people in the weaving were there
-and I, of course, was NOT!
I had fun hanging out with Aion and Shade and spent
several sleepless nights submerged in Mr.Hod's
extensive library -some of which I managed to pillage
via photocopier. Reading some of the old Mandragore
and Cincinatti journal HML stuff and chatting with
these founding mages of the double current made me
realize how much of what I'm doing now, and of what
we're all doing now, is a continuation of the
foundations laid in the 70s and 80s. The amount of
strange interconnecting threads has been boggling my
little mind somewhat. I am in awe at the intricacy of
the webs through timemit, forward kcab dna. Lots of
stuff culminating in the 10* formation it seems.
One of the things that really warped my head was the
application by Nema of the lines of AL III, 34 ('fresh
fever...Hrumachis shall arise...'etc.) to the concept
of N'aton in an old Mandragore magazine, confirming my
own transmission regarding such in 'The Book of Going
Back by Night'.
Aion took me to awesome icecaves in the
Cascade Mountains -not rock caves with
icicles as I had expected but actual tunnels through
gigantic solid-ice glaciers on the side of the
mountain. Cold, shimmering, dripping... I charged my
new Ekudanta DraQyl shortstaff in the ice roof,
balancing the fire charge I gave it at Mt.St. Helens
volcano.
Tara puja with Aion and Shade on Sun 17th, then back
to Portland in time for the semi-final Shasta circle
at Sienna's Laughing Bird Store/Temple: Practicalities
worked out, many thanks to Sienna's Malkuthian
persistence there! Energy rising, good connections.
Most involved seem really committed to the project,
invoking and meditating on their chosen sephiroth
daily.
Attended gnostic mass last night hosted by the
Sekhet Maat Oasis of the OTO.
Lots of inspiration coming through. I've realized
that 'The Book of Going Back by Night' is actually
only the first Chapter thereof, and I think there's
another beginning to come through...
Then earlier tonight, at the final ten-star circle
before leaving for the mountain tomorrow, everything
went completely haywire!
IAO!
Yesterday when I found out Alex couldn't make it over
to the US from the Netherlands in time for the 10*,
it was disappointing -but
Sienna was our 'reserve Sephiroth' for the weaving.
Then she informed me that she too felt she
couldn't/shouldn't come to Mt Shasta due to home and
shop commitments. Okay, difficult but this could
probably be handled also, as there was someone who had
been at most of the circles who would probably be
willing to be woven in.
The circle began with Grey Wolf apologizing that
something major has come up requiring his attention in
Vancouver this weekend. We were still trying to get
around this one when two other Flock representatives
also pulled out of the weaving. Sienna's told you all
that they're a closely-linked group, but this was
ridiculous!
Things seemed bleak it being so close to the working
which the rest of us have been putting so much time
and energy into, but Zygoat reminded me of my own
chaosmagic motto, 'Adapt to be adept' and we persisted
in trying to resolve the situation.
Incredibly, a new formation emerged from the chaotic
dissension. Several people who have been at most of
the circles and were planning on coming to the
mountain but were not going to be part of the weaving
have offered to be, our photographer became
(appropriatetly) Hod, and Enrique(Kether)'s old friend
Gaudi turned up to fill the other gap (appropriately,
Chokmah!). We still have one Flock representative, Ash
in Binah. I actually feel better about this new
formation than the previous one, as it seems do most
involved. It seems we have broken through the Apophis
ordeal and are reborn - just in time! Seems it is
meant to be, after all!
After chanting (DAT-recorded by Yi for a
synchronized chakra-orientated gig in Portland while
we're at Mt Shasta), most of us headed over for a free
sauna via Trevis' job, where we sweated out any
remaining tensions from the ordeal and emerged afresh
to head south to Mt Shasta tomorrow.
I did a bit too much pranayama in the sauna and was
floored by a subsequent kundalini rush, but feel
better for it now!
Since then I've been madly doing all the final
i-net-working for the various groups and individuals
tuning in astrally/translocally to the global
Muladhara rite.